God does more than we could ask or think.

For about 30 years Ive been meditating on the Psalms. After chewing on them for about 15 years I developed a habit to take every problem that I have and examine the kind of power it had over me, how I was going to address it, and use it to increase my faith. The Psalms taught me how to use adversity to motivate me to a greater trust in God. I began to look beyond my present adversity by using the evil in the adversity to consume my anger through cursing and then to press God through His covenants, promises, decrees, and law to overcome all adversity. The Psalms kept me from the temptation to live with counting my sorrows , sins and physical ailments as if they were important in the present and to gain a vision of the global and eternal purposes of God.

I cannot say that these experiences came from my discipline in trying to avoid mulling these issues according to my own understanding, but it was the accumulation of the emanations of God through illumination that began to awaking me in a spiritual conversion. It wasnt necessarily an intellectual vision that gave me a perspective beyond my current problems but it was God Himself infusing me with power in which I began to unite myself to His promise that He would do more than I could ask or think. My goal was not to create a life for myself in which I settled into a discipline of success but it was to bring all of my circumstances and the people to be united toward one goal. The power of secularism in this day and age is almost impossible to overcome. I found that the goal of my faith was to find mystery and each circumstance drove me to find that line between Gods blessing and His cursing. Gods eternal love and His anger that is compared to great catastrophes in His creation...such as volcanoes, hurricanes, tsunamis..or the great power displayed in the waves of the sea, and earth quakes. The hold that our circumstances have on us is sometimes so heavily weighted that we are always under some kind of obligation to seek to redeem ourselves through them. But Gods vision is much greater. Its having a sense of His great defensive power through the awful effects of the curse and being shaken by the authority that He pronounces through His covenants and decrees.

This line between blessing and cursing is a gift to us to rest from the tension of this world. Ive faced some opposition that was so strong that I was led to such a desperation that I had no rest unless I was calling out to God through the Psalms. The Psalms are the meditations that expose the spirit of the area that we live, bring us to argue against "the scheme" , and plead for a release of that power. As Ive said before unless people think that I have some odd view of personal power.. ive found that the opposition is more fierce in quick and direct competition with its spirit... the Psalms are contained within themselves ...that being a creation that is beyond our power...but they also realign our souls in finding rest. All contained.