Our desires are like a deep well

Ps 25 14 The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them.15 My eyes are ever on the LORD, for only he will release my feet from the snare. 

A lot of people miss interpret the teaching of self denial. Most of the time self denial is taught in the context of God going against our desires in order to teach us humility.  We must understand that in our former life we were  in bondage to sin. Our old will was a godless will. We naturally did not seek God nor did we think about God. Our choices were made out of being alienated from God. You could say that we made choices from being irritated  from our faulty view of God. The problems that we had with our godless will was beyond our ability to fix. This is why in the Psalms we are taught that the old life was much worse than we could have ever imagine. You must understand when we are thinking about changing our fundamental identity we must learn to view it from this great mystery and not acting from our own ability. 

The gospel is not just a message of salvation. The gospel gives us answers that address who we are and how we are to view the world that go against our natural way of thinking and acting. How can a person change by forgetting self? How can a sinner who wants to change do it by giving up his will in order to change? How does a person who is a sinner live in the reality that He is no longer stands guilty before God deserving of eternal death?  How can a holy God overlook and forget a persons sin? You see we have a very bad problem. If we feel a responsibility and frustration in which we anxiously try to answer these questions we are like a soldier who is standing watch at night who must remain completely still and quiet so that he will not alert the enemy that he is ready to attack. If he makes a false move then he will alert his enemies. We have these enemies that dwell inside of us. God has made it so that if we do not dwell in mystery we wake up the old enemies that dwell inside of us and increase the tension that the gospel has quieted. 

This is what our renewed desires are like. They are like a solder who is walking down this path at night who has enemies on each side of the path so that the only successful way to get to his destination is to quietly walk without looking to the right or the left. In other words the renewed desires are successful in the peaceful disposition ...falling back on Gods kingdom success in which  our desires are united with Gods desires for our success.  37 4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.103 5 who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.145 19 He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them" We must see that because our old will was much worse than we could ever imagine and our new will is much greater than we can imagine , that we can only understand the reality of this great gulf by understanding them on the level of Gods curses and blessings. How can we even get a glimpse of this understanding? We are free in that God pronounces them over us as we walk on our way as the reality of the fulfillment of our desires that are too deep for us to understand.