Romans and the Flesh Monster

I can see a simple trust as you rest in the arms of our Heavenly Father. I find that it is not as simple for me to find the rest and the spiritual design of being in the vortex of that sense of weightlessness that when i talk to you i can see that you bleed rest.  As you know that when i have talked to you on the phone that i have presented to you my theory on resisting some of the resistance that we face in this life that is detrimental to our spiritual well being. I do not know how to describe it other than this two fold paradigm... on the one hand we have these residual effects of finding relief in some form of self righteous imagination... and it could be in many ways...some of which have much to do with our knowledge of God ... of which i have talked to you about and knowing that you have a very good understanding of scripture since you have read so much in the past. But in that knowledge there is this life that flows from all of the meanings that we glean from what the scripture says to us.  This is a multifaceted prism that we are looking through as we begin to experience His life as we understand it to be applied to our strengths and weaknesses in light of the society that we live in. My point being that the free flow of divine unction is that by which we experience all of these paradigms of Gods present power in this direct way. We are as it were very complicated in this kind of experience of His working in us as to how we come to this healthy spiritual plateau. The second kind of resisting that we must do is to bring our pain and our concern of these different dark corners of our experience before Him in the way He has made us to express them to Him. After all we are in a real relationship with the God of the universe in whos presence we find this life to be sensing His awareness to our deepest need as that by which we come to feel this communication as a free flow that works its way through us and out to our particular situations. In this way there is never a design in which we do not find that our relationship with Him does not have this newness in the new moment of time. There is no time in which God is not free to love us as if we had procured some kind of sorrow from a feeling of being disconnect in being cast down into the depths of despair. We are encouraged to search our hearts in order to find that prism of sorrow that multi faceted brush of shame, fear, doubt and anger that covers the nerves of our spiritual senses to experience the presence of God and feel the warm reflection of the radiance of His glory that shines as He is in His disposition of love faithfulness, kindness , through His being all powerful.