We are wonderfully innocent with the Spirit. We focus on one object every day. We focus on one symbol every day.And we long for one thing at all times. All of us are Calvinist when we go to praying we merely talk ourselves out of it when we get up off our knees. It would be much more sensible to believe as our Lord promised that whatever you ask in His name, He will do.In fact I don't think He ever says when we pray He will respond to us in a feeling of sorrow. But when He expresses His feeling its because He is consistently acting in the specific circumstance. Our hope is shattered by men who lack faith. We are credibly informed that if we test God then we cant justly expect a miracle. That seems to remain our predictable cycle of thinking. 

First because we always start to question when we lack the understanding in an experiential sense that God is good, long suffering and unfailing in His love. The reason He passes before us as this kind of God is because we do not think that in our troubles  God is faithful as an innate disposition. If we sincerely believed that God was going to satisfactorily determine the outcome we wouldn't lose hope in His promise, and we wouldn't suspect Him for apparent reasons.Its that simple. So that a Calvinist doesn't entertain the compulsory power of human will to merely increase His hope. All of that arduous process is wasted on this hardened earth.This self-will process is a useless exercise in personal regret, overwhelming guilt, shame, fear, over focused on the alleged ability of man. Its natural for us to be blinded in this problematic area. Its as natural as it is to genuinely believe that God is absolutely sovereign, a doctrine that some of us cant stomach, to our own hurt. In a way at that point if we were not as vulnerable being subject this overwhelming sinful desire, we could face any circumstance. We could encounter any kind person who is does not believe that God is sovereign and states the reason that anyone sins. 

 It is because they don't believe that God is near.The reason anyone cannot overcome the moral distress is because they do not believe that God is sovereign. The specific reason people do not get along in marriage is they do not believe that God is sovereign. That is the fallback position. But why we include the axioms we can progress from questioning and dwelling on our sin to experience His sovereign goodness in being forgiven, We spread those things over to Him. The saints seek His gifts in our lives being enabled through the axioms to forget what is behind. It is a mystical experience of His sovereignty over all things. Whatever self-determination we entertain unfulfilled personal frustration and regret. In a foolish way we never give up humanistic determinism.