I repented because God decided to save me. The only thing i brought to God was my sin.There is no amount of pray, sorry, anguish, confession or good behavior that could earn Gods favor. The only thing that God favors is Christ work on my behalf.I used to describe my repentance in terms of my sin and the terrible feelings I had. It never made me happy until I started to ignore my decision and simply say I did not deserve salvation. God did it all. Then I started warning up to the Spirit.Jms 4 12There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you--who are you to judge your neighbor?" The hardest truth to learn is to rest in Gods work to save us. When we describe salvation by our decision we could be judging Christ.Once we learn that we were saved cause God was dragging us then we will be motivated to be lenient toward others.How would you like your family and friends put into an ot account as a history of redemption? Those ot authors were braveThats why I wash my mind with the Psalms. Usually what I am weak in I am obsessed about it in other people.God is gonna do all the blessing in our lives. We must miss out by not seeking him in word and spirit.Rom 15 I have written you quite boldly on some points, as if to remind you of them again, because of the grace God gave me " The grace of God should not make us guilty but boldHeb 4 14Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess16Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our timeof need If God promises to turn everything for our good do you think He just zaps us? No the Psalms written to speak by using our sin and weakness to argue for our need.God gave us desires to motivate us to turn weakness for good.The only thing you can trust is thinking Gods thoughts after Him. Pronouncing His law covenant, curses etc are so extreme that they consume are first reactions to circumstances. We find mystery knowing that God must work.Jesus is Lord. He does not become Lord. There are many scriptures that teach about His lordship.145 20The LORD watches over all who love him, but all the wicked he will destroy. Our salvation is complete. It is not focused on our good deeds, faithfulness, repentance or gifts. The Lord is the Lord because he overcomes all of our opposition.